Wow 8 bubbles within a minute, you probably should give up
Jokes aside, I probably am. Other than playing my free live games, I cant see me seriously continuing online in any real way. I am not rich enough at the moment to deposit a meaningful bankroll, and previous attempts have gone into dissarray. I feel too stressed when I play because I know I'm underrolled, but I cant be anything BUT underrolled, until I roll it up. I have never had a big online win, compared to two big ones live - I just think I'm a much better live player - I dont have the cash to piss about, and bubbling four times online and live in the space of 72 hours in four successive games is sick. Plus, I played cash - got my money MORE than in good, got rivered by K-7. I'm either not good enough, not lucky enough, haven't got the bankroll to play at all, or susceptible to tilt. Either one of those is bad news, and with everything else thats going on, its just getting me down.
Truth is, although I have by far the worst online record, no-one in this thread has a really amazing 'profit per hour' margin to shout home about, so even if it was a massive turnaround, its still only going to turn into a 'nice little earner' and not something thats going to supplement my wages. I'd rather play for titles and prizes live, knowing its not going to affect me in the long run - or at least until I have a normal wage for a 24 year old.
I think I've also had my head turned by working in a bookies in the last few weeks. Betting is bad news, the evidence is plain to see, and yet I have had a few small bets myself. Why? The evidence is there staring me in the face thats it not the best idea! Every one of us is going to go on a massive cooler, I had one a few months back, and it was sick, there was NOTHING I could do right. In the end - in my eyes, I don't see if its worth it.
Don't get me wrong, I LOVE the game. Love it. And for it to work there needs to be at least something at stake, but I am finding myself increasingly out of love with everything thats surrounds it. I wanna be a poker player, but not a gambler, and I could see myself slipping into that territory if I do not take a long hard look in the mirror.